Grace?

Have you ever journaled about something or prayed for something and then it actually happened? Cause I have and I actually didn't like it.

On Monday I asked God for times during this week to practice asking grace from other. And He supplied. This week has made me feel less than, caused me the question what defines me, and given me ample reasons to ask for forgiveness from others. And it's only Wednesday.

As I'm preparing for Thailand (STARTING THE 10 WEEK COUNT DOWN), I've been thinking about all the things I need to do like have self-disciplined, lose 5 pounds, learn how to spell words correctly, manage my money better, have effective communication, and love every single person I interact with. And the reality is that I am not going to master a single item on this list in 10 weeks, much less during my lifetime. 

Trying to let this be my life motto.

So. What do I do? What do I do with all my humanness and shortcomings and failings? Well, this week has taught me two things: ask for grace and, no matter what the other person's response is, God's grace is enough. 

Asking for grace from God is easy but asking other's is so hard. And then believing that God's grace is enough regardless of the other person's responce is even more challenging. 

I don't know how to do this well- asking for grace from others. I hold too much stake in other's view of me and forget how God sees me. But it is because of His grace that I can ask for it from others. I can ask for forgiveness for being late, loosing my patience, or missing expectations.  I may never master this skill, and I certainly won't have it all together before moving overseas, but grace is a gift that keeps on giving. God is enough. In my weakness, He is strong and it is only through Him that I find the strength to ask for grace from others.